So, there I was sat – endlessly procrastinating – about my all-important first post.
Understandably so, I hope you’ll agree…
- “The girls” (by whom I mean my two little daughters and our au pair) and I are all battling norovirus. My symptoms were sufficiently bad to throw my back out and now I can’t walk or stand properly.
- It’s also the run up to Christmas so I have an unusually long to do list.
- Not to mention that I have a pile of wholly unappealing divmin (divorce admin) to be getting on with pronto.
Not exactly how I envisaged the last six weeks of my second maternity leave panning out – but them’s the breaks!
So, whilst all of this is going on, my new CareerMom blog – which I had intended to have up and running a good couple of months ago – has had to take a back seat. I’m trying to be kind to myself about that.
One of the major blockers was that with so many things going on in my life there were too many choices for this first post. And too little time to actually decide upon which direction I should choose!
This morning however, as the girls are still asleep – and the poor emetophobic* au pair dozes on the sofa between noro-bouts – I decided I’d hobble downstairs from my sick bed – and just write something. Anything. Pop my blog post cherry so I can just stop worrying about the all important first post and just get on with it!
I think my trigger was that I saw an Amelia Earhart quote yesterday which entirely resonated:
“The most effective way to do it, is to do it.”
(My youngest daughter is named after Ms Earhart – and I am a fan of her no-nonsense wisdom.) For me though, I needed an equivalent about beginning new things. Mulling this over in my head, I evolved it to another known truth which is: “the best way to start something is to begin”.
So here I am, against all the odds – starting something new – and, in many ways, opening a door to change and unanticipated opportunities.
At a time when it feels like many doors are closing – this positive, growth mindset is incredibly important to me.
As I’m sure you’d agree – no, it isn’t a perfect first post – and I am even about to break all the rules by publishing without editing all day. But – I can hear my eldest has woken up and is calling for me.
So the “good enough” rule will have to apply and replace my former (pre children/pre divorce!) dedication to perfectionism.
In spite of all of that: if I can get up today, of all days – at my worst – and do something positive… who knows what I can achieve when I return to being my best.
I look forward to putting in the hard work required to find out.
*emetophobia /ɪˌmɛtəˈfəʊbɪə/noun – 1. extreme fear of vomiting (No, I didn’t know that yesterday either!)